Hey, Stranger

Yesterday it was sunny and then it rained and then the sun came out and then it rained and then when the sun decided to come out for a third time I decided to go for a run.

It’s been months since I went for a run outside but today something inside of me told me I would feel better after a run so rather than ignoring that something inside of me, I listened.

Shortly into my run I unconsciously started relating my journey through grief thus far to running.

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I seem to have misplaced my iPod shuffle that I typically use when I workout so I grabbed the old iPod Touch I bought to fill with Stephen’s iTunes library. It has 7,317 songs on it which is still only a portion of his music collection.

I love to listen to Stephen’s music because in a way it makes me feel closer to him knowing I’m getting lost in the same songs he used to get lost in.

The first mile of any run is usually the most difficult for me. But almost immediately following that mile I settle in, find my stride (which resembles that of a duck), and my breathing becomes rhythmic. Yesterday was nothing out of the ordinary.

A good run in my opinion is one where I can get lost in my thoughts, like I’m invisible inside myself just observing the world around me. It’s very healing to get lost in a world while giving it all of your attention at the same time. (If that makes any sense?)

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The song Ocean by John Butler Trio came on during my run and after a while I began to wonder when it would end. I checked just to see and the song lasts for 12 minutes and 28 seconds. Stephen would have a 12+ minute song with no words on his iPod so I wasn’t surprised. 

But it was the perfect song for my thoughts at that moment so I put it on repeat. (More like I listened to it about 2 and 1/2 more times.)

There are parts of every run of mine where I get a boost of motivation and my pace speeds up, I’m full of adrenaline and nothing can slow me down. At other times, I’m running so slow I might as well be walking – actually I’d probably be moving faster if I were walking. I get angry on some runs and curse every time my feet meet the ground and push off it again. On others, I swear I close my eyes, tilt my head to the sun, and smile because it feels so incredible.

Regardless, I keep moving.

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Running isn’t always easy, in fact, it can be very uncomfortable. But that’s the point.

You slow down, you speed up, you run in circles, over hills, down hills, and on straight-away flats. You might trip or even fall down. Sometimes all you want to do it stop and that’s ok.

 

But you can’t give up.

I can’t give up.

 

You can stop to catch your breath, tie your shoe, take a drink of water, or in my case burp lunch which didn’t have time to fully digest.

Yesterday (aside from the burping), I stopped to take a moment and enjoy a beautiful view that made me thankful for the presence – something to be so, so thankful for. After my brief stop, I felt like there was a new breeze in my face and wind at my back. It felt good to start my run again.

Usually, I never let myself stop but I’m really glad I did yesterday. I think it’s important to let yourself know that it’s ok and almost necessary at times to stop for a moment. You know your body and its limits better than anyone else and believe it or not, that little voice inside of you that’s quietly telling you to do something usually knows what’s best. Whether you’re running or just living, taking a moment to let yourself breathe and just be thankful for the beauty of presence can be the perfect boost of motivation to never give up.

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Running is about constantly pushing yourself past your level of comfort in order to find a new one.

As humans we are constantly changing. In fact, the struggle to survive is an effort to constantly cope with change and in order to be able to cope with change we must learn. Learning is a change in behavior due to experiences and change and learning can be very uncomfortable. But just like with running, once we push ourselves past one comfort level we find a new one and  with that new comfort level we become stronger. 

I’m in the process of learning to cope with such a drastic change in my life and it still feels too impossible to be real. But know that I am not giving up regardless of how I may appear to an observer. I am still moving and whether I realize it or not I am a little stronger with every passing day.

 

I had a completely different post drafted that I had planned on posting in place of this but this one seemed to fit better. The purpose of this post is to let those who might be wondering know that I haven’t given up on blogging. However, I hope you all can understand that I am a different person now and HNC will be different also, but for the better.

I have some product reviews, possibly a giveaway, and plenty of recaps up my sleeve for you all so get ready.

Lots of love,

Claire

When I did have something to say…

Happy Hump Day!

Before I say anything else I viagra best online store canada have to show you guys this cool new bowl of mine + this morning’s breakfast. Oh and little Winston in the back. 🙂

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I don’t have too much to chat about with you guys today so I thought I’d share some links from when I did have something to say.

A helpful tip post:

Things to Consider When Eating Out

A race recap post:

Charlottesville Half-marathon Recap

A recipe post:

Winner Winner Chicken Dinner

A food for thought post:

Fat Talk Free

A workout post:

Killer Leg Routine

A shenanigan post:

Sunday Funday

I hope you enjoy some of my older posts! Now it’s time to run some errands and pack for a family reunion in Fairhope this weekend.

And here’s something to think about:

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Have a great day!

A Little About Me from A to Z

Hey there guys and happy Tuesday! I saw this survey on Tina’s blog a few days ago and thought it’d be fun so here goes!

A. Attached or single?

Single.

B. Best friend?

Taylor has been my partner in crime for a long time now and I have a pretty good feeling it’s still a long time to come.

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C. Cake or pie?

Apple pie a l’mode, please.

D. Day of choice?

Monday! I love getting a fresh start to a new week.

E. Essential item?

Beauty: Light Moroccan Oil

Clothing: PINK v-necks

Workout: Nike slim capris

F. Favorite color?

Blues and greens.

G. Gummy bears or worms?

Worms. Specifically sour.

H. Home town?

Scottsboro, Alabama

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I. Favorite indulgence?

Froyo! Even though I probably indulge more than necessary. 😀

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J. January or July?

When it’s January I’m wishing it cheap viagra online canada was July and when it’s July I’m wishing it was January…

K. Kids?

Winston if he counts.

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L. Life isn’t complete without?

Family.

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M. Marriage date?

TBD

N. Number of brothers/sisters?

Zero but I definitely count Zach as more of a brother than a cousin.

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O. Oranges or Apples?

Apples! An apple a day keeps the doctor away, right?

P. Phobias?

Being attacked by a shark (thanks to the movie Jaws) and E.T. Still to this day I don’t understand the cuteness behind a creepy alien…

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Q. Quotes?

There are so many that I love but here’s just a few of my faves:

“Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.” -Winston Churchill

“Never love anybody who treats you like you’re ordinary.” -Oscar Wilde

“People who love to eat are always the best people.” -Julia Child

“Strength does not come from physical capacity, it comes from an indomitable will.” -Gandhi

R. Reasons to smile?

I am healthy and blessed with people who truly love me.

S. Season of choice?

Fall! Football, tailgating, and boots? Yes, please!

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T. Tag 5 People.

I’m only going to tag one person because she needs to post ASAP! Galen Storey!

U. Unknown fact about me?

I pick my nose with q-tips and still check underneath my bed at night.

V. Vegetable?

All of em!

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W. Worst habit?

I pick my cuticles like crazy. It’s such a horrible habit that I have yet to kick.

X. X-Ray or ultrasound?

Given the choice an ultrasound I suppose, haha.

Y. Your favorite food?

Sweet potatoes and watermelon.

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Z. Zodiac sign?

Cancer.

Well there ya go, a little about me from A to Z! 😉

National Drink Your Veggies Day

Goooood morning and Happy National Eat Drink Your Veggies Day!

Last week I received this awesome package thanks to Naked Juice.

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Inside I found a few pretty neat items…

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Of course, I had fun digging through all that purchase cheap viagra green “grass” to get to the good stuff.

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How cute are these seeds packaged?

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I think it’s finally time to utilize the small patch of yard on the side of my townhouse as a garden. Who cares about uniformity anyways… Hey, I’ll even share my garden’s produce!

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Now if that isn’t the most adorable watering pale you’ve ever seen then I’d probably die if saw what is.

This is all apart of Naked Juice’s new line of veggie drinks, Power Garden, that pack a whopping pound of veggies in every bottle! (Weight of veggies prior to juicing, obviously.) Not only that but Naked takes pride in the fact that their juices are never from concentrate and have no added sugar. Doesn’t get any better than that folks.

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Join me and Naked Juice by celebrating National Veggie Day with a cold one. Naked style. 😉

Cheers!